Finally Friday

I have to say I'm quite stoked that today is Friday. The night before last the mini-man was up half the night crying. Every time I'd put him back in bed he'd be quiet long enough for me to lie down and start drifting off before he'd start in again. By midnight I was ready for the funny farm, but he finally fell asleep thank God!

Yesterday Daddy took off work to stay home with him and get him to a doctor. I had strep throat last week, so I knew what was happening to him immediately. So I'm grateful for answered prayers in that we got him started on antibiotics the same day he started complaining of pain... I didn't get any until day 3 and by then I wanted to die, so I'm grateful mini-man didn't have to go through that kind of pain - not to mention there would have been no sleep for the duration either.

So with mini-man happily munching chewable amoxicillin and seemingly back to his regular night time sleep routine, I'm excited today's Friday. This weekend is supposed to be beautiful weather, and it's Lynn Valley Days so we're going to have fun watching the parade tomorrow morning. My band is also playing in the morning before the parade and having a year-end wrap party in the evening that I'm really looking forward to. Perhaps will get my stuff together enough to post some photos at some point.

Waiting for Nothing

Do you ever have an overwhelming sense that you should be doing something? Like maybe something's about to happen or you're on the verge of something exciting? I'm not sure what it is, but it drives me crazy. I am completely unable to sit and do nothing. My brain hurts from all the info floating around in there, yet I can't seem to sit down, relax and slow it all down. I think about work; I think about mini-man; I think about my future; I wonder if I should get a new job; I look for new jobs; I browse Facebook; I have something to eat; I read a page in a book; I check my email; I check the listings channel on the TV; I check my work email; I look at my google analytics account... for WORK! How sad is that?! I can't stop...

When I do nothing I feel like I'm wasting my life, but when I'm busy I feel like I'm missing my life. Am I crazy? ... Really. Is this what it's like to be rubber-room, straight jacket crazy? Am I ruining my kid with my neuroses? I'm busy all the time, but when I'm not busy I find something to do that means absolutely nothing yet takes up loads of time. I'm supposed to call my sister tonight, but haven't done it yet, I'm getting tired (it's only 8:15?!) and I'm thinking of just curling up in bed with a book knowing full well I'll read a paragraph and nod off.

I feel like I've finally (after only 2 years lol) figured out how to be a mom, but now I have to figure out how to be me again. Where am I? Who am I?

Well, as a random share, here's a picture from where I work. My band played on the mountain on Saturday... it definitely doesn't suck to be me, despite the whining...

Family Time

... About that whole "seeking balance" thing... today is a great day! My wonderful mother-in-law came over this morning (with my sister-in-law... must give credit where credit is due) for breakfast and to hang out with my amazing mini-man while my big-man and I went to church together... on his crazy-fast GSXR-750 crotch rocket :D fun! I think ours is the only church that really should have bike parking. It's starting to amass a following of leather-clad rocketeers who serve the Lord lol!

But again I digress... fun times. I haven't been on his bike in quite a while. I've become a bit of a nervous nelly since becoming a mom over 2 years ago, but I guess that's a God-given instinct: protecting your life. The mini-man thought it was very cool that mommy was getting on the back of daddy's motorcycle. I think he wanted to come too, but there's no way. He's not riding until he's at least 42.

So this afternoon we're headed out to enjoy the sunshine by the pool, sipping cool beverages with friends while caked in SPF 50 and enjoying inflatable things filled with water and bits of grass and such... you probably know how it is. I will do my best to relax while running around trying to make sure the mini-man doesn't fall in the in-ground pool, but instead sticks to the inflated variety. I should wear a hat.

The Power of Prayer

A couple of months ago I found a very cool website. It's simple, but impactful. A great place to go to see your life isn't as bad as you think it might be. A place to find inspiration. A place to find people all seeking the same thing: Dear-God.net.

Sometimes it's only when we open up and share our struggles with others that we realise everyone has the same types of struggles. I'll admit to being one of the first to submit to the belief that everyone around me seems to have it all together while I'm the only one madly juggling 26 different pieces of fruit in varying shapes and sizes. I suspect the reality is that all those people who seem to have perfect picket-fenced lives have something in their life that makes them as human as the rest of us.

Anyway... here's another random thought brought on by my pastor's sermon this morning (he'd die if he thought this came from him lol): I'm thinking of getting all of John 3 tatooed on my arm as a half sleeve. How's that for a profession of faith? I dunno. I wonder if there's a better chapter. I don't suppose my arm is big enough for an entire book... okay, well maybe Galatians or something...

Seeking Balance... for real.

So here I am, at work... working diligently at setting up Facebook ads and a company twitter. I think it's my ADD... no, really. I think if I had come into the world 15 or 20 years later than I did, I would have been medicated for it. I was browsing Google's latest widgets, looking for anything I should be considering for business, and I decided to set up a new gmail account. Then I figured, while I'm at it, I should delete my hotmail account... so really I needed to transfer my contacts over. No problem... a quick export, a quick import and it's done. But then I had to email a bunch of people who still use my hotmail to contact me. Archaic I know... I'm on Facebook every day for heaven's sake! And then I realized my hotmail is my login for a bunch of things... so I had to go and change my email address in those things, like Blogger and Twitter. So then I thought oh I should add my blog URL to my twitter - after all, it asked for a URL in my profile that I was updating. Then I noticed I hadn't blogged, and my blog name was related to my hotmail account... so I had to delete it and start all over again. Okay I digress...

I think I spend too much time online. So I thought I'd strike a balance in my life by starting a blog. Yeah... that makes sense. I'd better get back to work...